February 6, 2014

Birthday Blues

Friday night, I walked into The Grey Lady on the Lower East Side for my 'surprise' birthday-slash-new-job party. I still hadn't heard from Richard. At this point, I was pissed, and I was also sick of people telling me to "back off and give him his space." Yeah, I shouldn't have ambushed him like I did, but it had been five days since we spoke, enough time for him to come to terms with whatever it was he needed to come to terms with. This is a guy who has told me he loves me, and who has spent the entire holiday season with my family, and he doesn't even have the decency to send me a text on my birthday? I was done.

"I'd be done too," Ashley said, handing me a vodka soda.

I took a sip. "You're not very subtle, you know?"

"This is not about me not liking Richard for you," Ashley said. "If I knew nothing about Richard but this incident, I would still be saying this. He clearly doesn't want to be in a relationship with you."

I covered my heart with my hand and winced. "It's my birthday-and-new-job party, have a little mercy."

Ashley gave me A Look. "You know I don't just mean you. I mean anyone. I think he likes the idea of it in theory, but when it comes to the actual hard relationship stuff, he doesn't want to put in the work." She pushed a twenty on the bar to pay for our drinks. "You shouldn't take it personally. He did it to Sam too."

I know it wasn't her intention, but that just made me feel worse. I like Richard, was falling in love with Richard, because it felt like we had a special connection. Richard has a hard time opening up to people and I thought I was the person he would do that with. Just like every other lovesick girl in the world, I guess.

"Hey." Ashley pointed her chin across the bar. "Peter."

He didn't see me, but I saw him. He was wearing this black cashmere coat that I love. It's something Nance would describe as 'rich looking', makes him look like he's someone. He pushed his hair back and looked over his shoulder, at the tall dark haired girl in leather pants opening the door behind him. He smiled. Leaned down and kissed her. When he straightened up again, he scanned the bar. This time, he saw me.

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"Think twenty-six will be a good year?" Peter asked.

I nodded. Despite the Richard hiccup, I really did. "I feel like my career is finally taking off. Like I could be in a completely different place this time next year. No more assistant for me."

Peter sipped his drink and nodded. "If William keeps his word that is."

I'd told Peter all about my new job, and the promise William had made me. "I know you don't like him," I said, "but he's never given me a reason to doubt him. Plus," I shrugged, "it's not really about William. I go to LA if I prove myself to the partners. It's all on me."

"I would just hate to see you get your hopes up and it doesn't work out," Peter said.

"What is this?" I laughed. "Ye of little faith."

"No!" Peter laughed back. "It's just...do you really think this was the right move for you? You have to be a shark to work in that industry."

I frowned into my drink. I didn't want to sour the night by getting defensive with Peter, but it bothered me that he would assume I don't have it in me to make it in 'the business,' as I'm learning people call it. I'd worked the job offer from CWA—negotiated a higher salary and made a deal regarding the Agent Training Program that to my knowledge, no assistant has ever made before. A dolphin couldn't have pulled that off.

"Hey!" Devon, Peter's date, popped up in front of us, back from the bathroom.

"What can I get you?" Peter asked her.

She squinted at the drinks menu displayed above the bar. "Uh, I guess just a vodka cranberry."

Peter turned away from us to order her drink and Devon said, "So I'm confused. Is this a birthday party or a celebratory party?"

"Both," I said.

Devon glanced at her phone in her hand. She was incredibly striking, but she seemed really young to me. She started to text someone as she asked, "What are you celebrating?"

I smiled. "New job."

Still texting. "Cool. Where?"

I told her about my move to CWA. I kept it short, but she still seemed to zone out. I turned the conversation back on her. "What do you do?"

"Oh," she waved her hand, "I've been taking some time off since graduating last Spring."

I'm no math whiz, but if Devon graduated in the Spring, that meant she has been job-less for nine months—and she's at most twenty-three years old. Peter's last girlfriend was young, and I was much more of a spring chicken myself when we first started dating. Devon is three years younger than me, which on paper, seems like nothing. But when I compare what I was like when I was twenty-three to what I'm like now, I realize how big a difference it makes.

"Here." Peter handed Devon her bright drink and she pursed her lips, asking for a kiss. Peter looked uncomfortable as he leaned down and pecked her on the mouth.

"Oh my God!" Devon suddenly cried. "My old roommate is here." She put her hand on Peter's chest. "I'm just going to go say hello." She clicked off in her sharp booties.

"She seems nice," I said to Peter. He smirked at me.

"What?" I laughed.

"You're a really bad liar," Peter said.

"I'm not lying!" I said. "I just...what's with all the barely legal girlfriends?"

Peter's shoulder brushed mine and he grinned. "Jealous?"

I gave him a little push. "I'm just picking up on a pattern, that's all."

Peter shrugged. "I don't know. It's not like a conscious decision. These are just the girls I've met who I like and who seem easy," he arched an eyebrow at me, "and not in the biblical sense. I just mean they're laid-back. After Elizabeth, I need laid-back."

I almost asked if laid-back was code for naive and impressionable, but I bit my tongue. "Was I laid-back?

Peter drained the rest of his drink. "You used to be."

I nodded. "I know you don't really mean that as a compliment," I said, "but it is to me." I was so green when I first met Peter it must have been palpable, the way I can sense it on Devon. I don't feel green anymore.

Peter looked down at me, his eyes moving back and forth over me like he was skimming a newspaper article. "I'm happy you're happy."

I clinked my drink against his. "I'm happy you're happy."

Peter and Devon left not long after that. Peter is always going to give me that uh-oh feeling in my stomach (he is one handsome son of a bitch and I am only human), but I'm growing up, and it's becoming clear that we want different things. The whole reunion just made my anger towards Richard dissipate, and I found myself aching for him—I know he's had a tough time with his own job situation, but he has never once placed that burden on me. He's been nothing but excited about the changes in my career, cheering me on, rather than doubting that I can handle new challenges. It can't be easy for him to offer that kind of unbridled support when things aren't going his way, and that, to me, says a lot about a person's character.

Ashley was nowhere to be found, so I approached Nina, cozy in the crook of Nick's armpit. She's been dating him ever since November, and he's decided to move to New York when he finishes his graduate degree in the Spring. In the meantime, he's been visiting New York a lot. It warms my heart to think that Frank is getting to spend more time with him, after missing out on his childhood.

I tugged on her sleeve. "I think I'm going to get out of here."

"What?" Nina spat. "You can't! It's your party."

"I know," I sighed. "I have the birthday blues and I can't shake them."

Nina glanced at the time on her phone. "Stay another fifteen minutes, at least."

I looked at my phone too. It was 9:47. Nina had a point—it would be pretty pathetic to bail before the local news aired. "Okay," I agreed.

I'd had three vodka sodas, and they suddenly hit me all at once. "I'm going to the bathroom," I told her.

Nina studied me, her brows bunching together with suspicion. "You better not skip out."

"I'm not, Mom." I made my way to the bathrooms by the entrance of the bar. The line was long, and it took everything I had not to break into the little toddler pee dance while I waited. Finally, it was my turn, and I think I beat Tom Hanks' record in that scene from A League of Their Own.

I washed up and slid open the door (oh, trendy New York bar bathrooms and your sliding frosted glass doors). I was rounding the corner to return to the main room when I stopped dead in my tracks. Richard was standing in front of me.

"Hi," he said. His face was scruffy; he clearly hadn't shaved for days. It read as nonchalant on him, like he didn't care about anything and no one could make him, and I just wanted him more.

I did my best to steel everything in my face. "Hi."

"Happy birthday," he said.

I swallowed the heavy lump in my throat. "Thanks."

"I want you to come with me," he said, and he held his hand out.

I stared at it, unmoving. "Where?"

"My place."

I still didn't move.

"I have some stuff to tell you, Josie," Richard said. "I owe it to you to tell you this. I know this now." I still wasn't giving him my hand, so he grabbed it and pulled me into him. I tried to push him off, but then he whispered into my ear, "I fucking love you. I'm not going to fuck this up."

I looked over his shoulder at Nina, who was staring at us intently. She gave me a little smile and a nod. I realized she'd known he was coming all along.

I let Richard lead me out of the bar.




***Thank you to everyone who has been understanding of the extra demands on my schedule lately. Let's not let the negativity ruin the fun for us—I know sometimes it seems like it takes over the entire comments section, but the traffic numbers show that a very small portion of the readership suffers from outraged fingers syndrome. If I listened to everyone who tried to tear me down in my life, I wouldn't be where I am today.

I will have book news to share in 5-6 weeks (i.e. forever for this impatient millennial!).

109 comments:

  1. As shitty as the negatice comments are, I would take it as a compliment to your work. People are angry that they have to wait to read more :-)

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  2. Can't wait to read what Richard has to say! Love this post jessica!

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  3. Jess you are awesome glad to see your post! Keep up with the great writing and the positive attitude! :)

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  4. This was so good! I really hope Richard and Josie work out! Thanks for posting!!

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  5. I sense some steamy slow make up sex coming our way! Can't wait!

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  6. As much as I loved Peter, I'm glad to see that Josie has realized that they are never going to want the same things. It bothers me as well that he still doesn't seem to believe in her. Richard has been a jerk here recently, but I can't help but feel like he has some reasons behind it and will make it up to Josie soon! I'm really liking them together! Thanks for posting Jessica!

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  7. Was so excited to read this today! I know life happens, but man do I find myself wondering what Josie's latest adventures are in the days in between posts! :)

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  8. I just wanted to know I think you're a really talented writer, and I always enjoy reading the blog! Can't wait to see what it has in store.

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  9. Im super excited for your book! Can't wait :)
    Omg Richard. I'm having a nervous wreck! Please let this work

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  10. OHMYGOD! I knew Richard wasn't gonna fuck this up! I was even thinking maybe he'd see Peter when he comes to the party unannounced, hoping to be unseen just 'cause he missed Josie, but gets all jealous and territorial and then, whoa, I ACTUALLY read his name in the scene and everything's just perfect in my life again!

    BTW, I love the way he says "I fucking love you." It somehow provides the right amount of intensity to the pent-up emotions he has for her. Love love love this! Can't wait for more!

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    1. i swear i absolutely feel the same way ....
      i'm literally going to be chewing my nails off waiting for the next installment

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    2. Yes! Yes Yes! Couldn't agree more and the way he said he loved her really got me:)

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  11. Thank you for being so awesome and taking the time to write this for us. I completely understand that you're busy but sometimes its just so hard to stay away... !! Good luck with your book, can't wait to hear more about it!
    You RULE!!

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  12. Love your entries and your writing. I think its admirable you keep up this blog during your busy schedule and its our great honor to read it.
    Thanks for adding some love into our daily routines❤

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    1. I agree with Rawan..adding some <3 .. Good read Jess.

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  13. I have been reading your blog forever! It brings such a smile to my face every week hearing what J is up to!
    Don't get down with the negativity! :)

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  14. Great post as usual!! I am a huge fan and cannot wait for some details on your book!

    Have to admit I was hoping for more with Peter but maybe it will happen for them one day!

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  15. Blog Comment: So Richard shows up to her birthday party that her friends threw her without calling looking like crap to drag her away to his apartment to listen to his saga on her birthday. Great guy! Really not selfish of him! Again this guy is 29??? Josie...Richard is a complete ass. When did Ashley start having more sense than you?


    Jessica: I am glad thing are coming along on the book. I love this blog, I have been reading it for years. Don't worry about negative people, some people need things to complain about.

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    1. Nina knew he was coming.. That's why she didn't want Josie to leave.

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    2. Okay I re-read that part and you could be right or maybe she just wanted her to enjoy her b-day party-I can't tell.

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    3. She knew he was coming. AND Josie WANTED to see him.

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    4. Still not sure about that and I agree Josie has poor judgment

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    5. You're not sure about if Nina knew he was coming? Why else would she ask her to stay for 15 more minutes? Why not another hour? 15 minutes allowed Richard to get there before she bailed.

      I don't think Josie has any worse judgment than any of us do. She loves him and she's mature enough and compassionate enough to want to talk to him before bailing or whatever her decision ends up being. Don't see anything wrong with that. This world would be a better place if more people opened up instead of shutting down, IMO. Doesn't mean she's marrying the guy - they're just dating.

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    6. I am not sure he was in communication with Nina. I think Nina just wanted her to stay at her party that she threw her and have a good time. I agree that it is possible that she knew but the text can read either way so until the author elaborates I am not sure.

      I cannot compare Josie to any of us. Because I don't know every single person reading this blog. However I can compare her to me and when it comes to people she has poor judgment and not just with Richard either. I think it was poor judgment to find out someone you slept with was keeping a list of girls from high school and then two days later continue seeing him. She doesn't examine people's actions...I guess she overlooks them or sees them in a way that she wants to see them or maybe hopes for the best. Also, I don't think Josie hearing Richard out is necessarily a mistake. I think leaving her birthday party to hear him out on his terms after he ignored her for two weeks and told her to go away is a mistake. She could have just easily told Richard that it was her birthday and she would call him later.

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    7. Richard is an ass. I wish he'd be gone.
      That being said, I also wish Josie's character would start to develop and evolve more. In her work life she's matured a little bit but personally it's like she's the same person she was in the beginning. People usually grow and change and she really hasn't. It's time for this blog to step up and take a turn. It's the same stuff over and over again....

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  16. Ahhh!!! Doing a happy dance! I love Richard and Josie. I'm so glad he pulled his head out of his arse. I wish he would've done it BEFORE her birthday, not at her party, but I'm happy he's realized he was going to fuck it up if he didn't act. Yay!!

    I love your blog, I've been following since back in the K days on Cosmo to the beginning of Josie. While I may be bummed for 2 seconds if you skip a post or take a holiday, I'm just so happy you have kept it going after Cosmo days :)

    Kate

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  17. I love your writing!!! Never stop please

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  18. Love the blog. Will love the book. Don't give up!

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  19. Ahhh so glad that Josie is back today - I've been looking forward to this post all week!

    For those of you who are looking to start another blog, I've tried my own hand at writing and would love your support and comments. Find my blog at:

    breakupsmakeups.wordpress.com

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  20. I don't know why, but I feel really bad for Peter. He took a really hard hit with Elizabeth. I really hope in the end, he finds someone (preferably older and wiser than this Devon girl haha) and can have the life he always wanted. And I hope that we somehow get to hear about that happy ending too. Idk, I just really liked the guy and I think he's a good person. I am very happy that him and Josie can still be friends and care about each other. It's nice to see that, because we haven't been able to see Josie truly be friends with one of her exes before.

    As for RIchard, I don't know if I can see him ever being the one for Josie. He just seems too unstable for her and I don't think he'd be a good person for Josie to settle down with. For now, it's okay. They seem to be falling in love with each other and that's great. I don't think we've ever seen Josie in love with someone, so it'll be a nice read and I'm actually excited about it. But I still don't think he's the right person for Josie to end up with when it's all said and done. Just my opinion though :) And we love you Jessica!! Don't ever ever ever stop writing!

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  21. Ah! I loved Peter, and am bummed they won't work out in the end, but I think we all experience something similar in our lives.

    Can't wait to hear about the book!

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  22. I've been reading your blog for almost 6 years and I've never commented but I just wanted to add another voice saying that you're awesome and this is awesome and we all know life gets crazy sometimes. Josie updates are the highlight of my week, as I'm sure they are the highlight of those with outraged fingers syndrome, but I would feel awful knowing that you or your work was suffering just to get us our biweekly fix. Keep on keepin' on, we love you!

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  23. Hey Jess! So I've been following your blog for over a year now and it's been a real delight so far. I'm always disappointed because it's over way to quickly - in other words: I love your writing and what you're doing. To all those haters: please don't read and be rude! There is no reason. It's a great blog and I'm really looking forward to it. Since I'm in Europa it's always and night and I'm looking forward to it all day! So, all in all - keep it up Jess! Would love to see even more, but I know you have a life not only this blog ;-)

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  24. As a longtime reader, I just wanted to commend you on your amazing writing Jess. I am as disappointed as the next person when life gets in the way of the posts, but I thoroughly understand! It amazes me (and makes me incredibly happy) that you have continued with the blog post-Costmo. You are an incredibly talented writer, I cannot wait to hear details about the book!

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  25. I love you're blog! It helps me get through the week. Thanks :)

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  26. Can't wait till Tuesday!

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  27. I find it humorous how the author sees a character in a completely different light than the readers. Richard is a complete ass. He may not place "burdens" related to work on Josie, however he certainly plays the mental mind-screw enough. To me that is way worse than anything Peter has ever done and I don't even want Peter and Josie back together. Peter is actually too good for her. Richard will continue to screw around with her and she will continue to take it. I wish there was some growth for Josie in maturity in her relationships.

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    1. I actually feel the opposite. Peter was constantly belittling Josie with backhanded remarks and condescension. Yes, Richard was kind of an ass on the surface to his conquests but that's from a female's perspective. I'm with, and have been with, a guy who was a lot like Richard in the past. In his mind, he never intentionally "played" the girls he'd hook up with. He just thought he liked them more than he actually did and didn't want to drag himself through a relationship he wasn't that invested in. I see a strong parallel in Richard. The one outburst he's had since dating Josie was very emotionally driven and when anyone keeps that much shit bottled up it isn't surprising that he exploded like that. I think all in all, he hasn't given Josie any reason to be hesitant about him as a boyfriend aside from being MIA for so long after his outburst. I just think people have put Peter on some unrealistic pedestal and have forgotten some of the shitty things he used to say to her.

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    2. Richard's behavior has nothing to do with Peter. Richard has played mind games with Josie since before they were together. No one is saying other girls, they are talking about Josie specifically. He intentionally did things to mess with her and still does. Not to mention his whole demeanor screams of instability emotionally. Hey if Josie likes a guy like that great, but honestly Richard is not a nice person.

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    3. Richard is a bitch. End of.

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  28. Oh mah gawd. The ending gave me the squeals. Also, I love you Jessica. I'm glad you're not letting the betches grind you down.

    Can't wait for book news!

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  29. Awww Peter! I love that guy. I really wanted him and Josie to work out, but I guess it just isn't in the cards for them. Maybe in the future? Maybe not? Who knows. Someone above me mentioned they wanted to hear about a happy ending for Peter and I agree! Somewhere along the way, it'd be nice to hear that he finally found someone, even if it isn't Josie.

    I hope there is some hot make-up/birthday sex with Richard and Josie!

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  30. Oh sweet baby Jesus whats he gonna say!!!!!! I loved it as usual, girlie you are the bomb!! Cant wait till the next post. Love Josie and Richard together

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  31. I was totally expecting Josie and Peter to hook up but turns out he has a girlfriend! Oh my gosh i cant WAIT for Tuesday! there are so many different things that could be going on in Richard's life....

    Your blog is amazing. Sometimes taking a break makes it even more exciting for the next post. And everyone who hates on this blog can spend their precious time doing something else.

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  32. Lovely post yet again! don't care if I have to wait! I'm adult enough to be patient! keep it up Jessica!

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  33. I've been following this blog from the beginning and I love how smoothly all the characters have transitioned as the time has passed. I feel like I know all of them personally! Looking forward to the next blog post and I can't wait to hear about your book! I'm so excited for you, Jessica. Fantastic writing and keep up the good work:)

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  34. I'm just glad you're still writing Josie! She's a girl after my own heart and one of the few constants I have. Excited for book news! :)

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  35. Really liked this entry-and I liked that it was a bit longer too!! Can't wait to read what happens next!

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  36. Hate when we have to wait extra days, but it's so worth it! I love your blog! Been following it from the beginning!!
    Can't wait to see what Richard will say/do/what will happen!
    Please post on Tuesday, I'm to impatient to wait!! (: (:

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  37. i cant wait to hear what richard has to say for himself. i am not a fan of him so it better be good or she needs to kick him to the curb. i had told my bf when we first started dating that anything over 3 days of not talking meant we were broken up.
    Renee Marie

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  38. Love your blog, and I'm so glad it's still up and running. I've been following from the start! I'm still not sure how I feel about Richard. Sure, it's great that he came back and all, but I feel like he's being wishy-washy with everything he says and does. Sure, he loves her, but then he ignores her for days? Can't wait for the next post though!!

    In case any of you want an additional blog to read, I started up a fiction blog a little like this one. Just published the first entry today! http://highheelshappyhour.blogspot.com/

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  39. i've read this blog for years. it sucks when u miss a day, but come on ive missed a day reading it as well. its great seeing that women go thru the same stuff no matter where they live eg trinidad or nyc. (sorry folks about the bad english gotta go do laundry)

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  40. So loved this post! I can not wait to see what Richard has to say. I hope it turns out good. I like the dynamic between them. Can't wait for Tuesday!

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  41. I SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO want more. Love this blog. It is my little escape from reality reading this and I have followed from the very beginning. Wish it were Tuesday. I am dying to know what is going on with Richard. I got chills when he said he loved her.

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  42. looks like all the whiners either kept it quiet or have moved on!! as long as you are willing to post, i am willing to read!! cannot wait til tuesday.

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  43. Ahhh omg that gave me the giddy love feeling reading the last part...even though I bet he has a secret love child or something bad with his family....I don't thunk it will be good, but I know he loves Josie.

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  44. Those cliffhangers of yours, srsly, whyyy ? Now we've to wait again to find out what he has to say. #impatientreader

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  45. Haven't you notice? Those people who complained aren't complaining about how crappy your posts are. They're complaining about not seeing a post on the scheduled day. I sometimes groan too when that happens, especially when I am excited to know what comes next. I'm not saying don't mind them, just don't let those negative comments get into you. Anyway, good luck on your book and keep up the good work. I can't wait for Tuesday's post.

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  46. I usually don't comment but YAY RICHARD

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  47. Can't wait to hear what Richard has to say. I think he's too immature for Josie and she needs a real man. Everything is about him. He couldn't even wish Josie happy b-day, ignored her for 5 days and then shows up at her party to whisk her away to talk about his drama??? I know she can do better.


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  48. I'm so over Richard. He is so selfish. Josie is stupid if she lets things go further with him.

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  49. I wish a new guy would just come along that we could all agree on :( Maybe when she goes to LA? I still don't think Richard's the right person for her.

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  50. Man what a cliffhanger!! So excited about the next post now! I think this post really shows Josie growing up quite a bit. Seeing Peter and Devon and his conversation with Josie wraps the 'Peter chapter' very nicely!

    And YAY to Richard! Perhaps there's a surprise coming up for Josie.

    Thanks Jessica for the great post!

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  51. UGH!! Such a good post!

    It was nice to see Peter again, I was a big fan of his. That's probably because I have fantasies of dating a hot, sexually talented, older man myself. I didn't like Richard to start off with (I'm still not 100% sold on him) but there's something about Richard's intensity that is really compelling.

    Can't wait to for Tuesday's post! Let the confessions and hot sex roll!!

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  52. Eek, are we finally going to hear about Richard's family?! Can't wait 'til Tuesday!

    Caroline
    cranberryvodka9.blogspot.com

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  53. You go Woman! Bitches be crazy and unfortunately not everyone is going to love everything you do. Hope you have as much fun writing as I do reading it.

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  54. Still waiting for Josie and Peter to get back together! Haha

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    1. Same here! When they slept together for the last time they both said some thigs that made me think Peter will return someday, and not just as Josie's friend. Fingers crossed!

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  55. Such a great post and definitely worth the wait. Good luck with the book, I can't wait to hear more!

    www.lawschoolloveandlouboutins.blogspot.com

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  56. Your blog rocks! It's wonderful you are able to post this often, and I'm just thankful and haven't ended the series. Good luck with your book, looking forward to the news!

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  57. Hi Jessica,

    I have followed you since in Cosmo, you are doing great. Reading this entry and all other entries I love your writings. Tuesday and Thursday are the highlights of my week when I get a few minutes of the day to read these. Keep writing. <3

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  58. Throw in a random update tomorrow since you missed Tuesday? I'm dying to know what Richard is going to say!

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  59. OMG this is the first time in my life that I want the weekend to end hahaha. I really want it to be Tuesday!

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  60. But I looooooove peter

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  61. Book news in 5-6 weeks? Sounds like you're waiting to sign your contract. Been there! These things take forevah!

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  62. Dammit toooo short! Lol yay Richard! :)

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  63. Can't wait for the big secret. I know it's not some rich benefactor. That would be too easy. Remember when everyone thought Ashley was pregnant!

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  64. fuuuuuuuuuuuck! OMG I cant wait for the next post, Im soooo happy that Richard wants to make things work and Nina knew new about him coming :-)

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  65. Cant wait for your book announcement, I just can't wait until it'll be released ! Looking forward to it ! And congratulations.

    You keep me on edge very week with Josie !

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  66. I never liked Peter. He just seems sleazy going out with much younger women, because he has a problem with commitment.

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  67. Didn't know you were getting some negativity for missing posts. That is quite lame! This blog is awesome, and I'm just glad you are keeping it going at all! I really look forward to your updates, so yeah you're awesome.

    -Kat

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  68. Another great blog post! Thanks Jessica! Once again, you give us a bomb-ass posting. I've been reading since back in the K days with Cosmo. I LOVE and really appreciate (and I'm sure everyone else does too) that even if you don't have time for a blog post you still get on and give us readers an update. To me, it lets us know you're still thinking about us even when life gets super crazy. That was one thing that I found really frustrating about Cosmo's former blogger, was that we never knew when a new post was coming. So thank you, thank you for setting a schedule and not forgetting about us! I absolutely love the blog, can't wait to find out what Richard has to say!

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  69. Thanks Jess! This is so cool!
    I can't wait for the next update :) I'm loving Josie with Richard.. I know you're doing this for free, in fact for all of us, thanks! If you're busy, just let us know. Waiting for your book too!

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  70. Awesome post! Thanks so much, and don't ever let the negativity get you. If anything it is flattering that people are mad they didnt get to read your blog. Means youre loved :)

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  71. I would like to thank you as writer for making this blog. I have been following it for a while now, and it never ceases to keep me entertained, and enraptured in your tales, I wish you the best of luck with everything coming ahead of you in your life.

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  72. I think this is my favorite post so far! I love Richard so much : )

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  73. Hope Tuesday is not another teaser post...can't take the suspense. I want to know what's up with Richard!

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  74. Love the post! I feel like it was kind of crappy of Richard to make her leave her own party. she has waited for him for 5 days, he can wait until she's ready to leave.

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    1. but she wanted to leave anyways. He just gave her a reason to leave right that second

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  75. I feel like even though Josie thinks it's clear that she and Peter are wanting different things and will be "just friends" from this point on, something will happen later on that will bring them back together again. Assuming everything works out, Josie will learn so much and will be even more mature than she is now, which I think will make Peter see her differently. I don't think Peter was completely wrong to question her career move--she is taking a risk and it won't be easy. But yes, it would have been nice if he had been somewhat supportive and wished her good luck. I really liked Josie and Peter together, BUT I also really like her and Richard together and am anxiously awaiting what he has to tell her on Tuesday! Even though I was bummed that J and P didn't work out, I would be just as bummed if J and R didn't work out either.

    Happy belated birthday Josie! (haha) I'm currently 26 and it's been good so far! Hope the same goes for Josie! ;)

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  76. I'm happy for you! <3 Forget the haters.

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  77. Jess you're the absolute best! I am so invested in this blog, and so excited for the book news!

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  78. Jess, your writing rocks. People who want to be negative should just not read the blog, duh.

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  79. jess u r a great writer. i'm so glad you don't let the crazy negativity get you down! can't wait to hear about ur book, girl!

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  80. I feel like I finally understand why things didn't work with Peter and why it probably won't. Peter is looking for a young, naive, easy girl. He doesn't want a girl with ambition - a girl that presents some challenges. I think he is trying to find a girl who is the opposite of Elizabeth who was scheming, calculating, and driven to get what she wanted. He wants a relationship where he is, without a doubt, pulling the strings.

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