March 6, 2014

This is Where I Leave You

Richard, Nina, and Ashley went all out for my going away party—dinner in the back room at Locanda Verde, private table at the newly retooled Marquee, and bottles of Veuve flowing.

Just kidding! I don't live in an R. Kelly music video.

No, we went totally old school—dinner at the Patsy's on 60th with just Richard, close friends, and my parents (who went right home after), followed by shuffleboard-playing and jukebox-hogging at Plug Uglies, where everyone from my peripheral group of college friends to new co-workers showed up. Even William made an appearance.

"Enjoy every moment of this," he told me right before he left, "because the next couple of months are going to be hell. And I'm not saying that to scare you—I'm saying that to prepare you."

"I know you are," I said. "I'll see you in LA?"

William gave me a hug, which was weird because William and I are not huggers. We were both pretty warm and loopy though, and after he left I discovered he'd left his card on file so that the next hour was an open bar for me and all my friends. Aw, William.

Nina was there with Nick, who told me that his father was very surprised—but proud!—that I'd been accepted into the agent training program so soon. It was such a stodgy Frank comment to make, but I couldn't be mad at him.

"Tell him thank you," I said. "It was a unique situation that lead to this though. If it wasn't for this new film financing department in LA that William is overseeing, I would not be going to LA, and William wouldn't have pushed for me to get into the program so soon."

Nina poked me in the shoulder. "Hey," she slurred, "no underselling yourself. You got into the program—it wouldn't have happened if they didn't see," she gestured at me, sloppily, while trying to find the right word, "something...in you."

"Okay," Nick laughed, "I think it's bedtime for you." Nina gave him a lazy smile.

"I should get going too," Ashley said, looking at the time on her phone. "It is a school night."

"I know." I stood on my tip-toes and scanned the crowd for Richard. "I'm going to head out soon too."

I hugged Ashley, then Nina, who snotted a little bit on my shoulder. "Parting is such sweet sorrow," she moaned as Nick gently pulled her off of me.

Wryly, I said, "You missed your calling as an actress, Nin," but the sarcasm was just a cover. I was blinking back tears.

After Ashley and Nina left, I found Richard on the shuffleboard table.

"Hey," he said, sending a puck across the table, "you ready to get out of here?"

I brushed my hip against his. "Ready if you're ready."

Richard knocked back the rest of his drink and wiped his arm across his mouth, grinning at me. "Ready."

We were almost at the door to the bar when it opened, and Peter stepped inside. He pulled his gloves off and breathed into his hands, acknowledging me over the brim of his fingertips with a single arch of his eyebrow. There was less than a body length between us, and I had no choice but to say hello.

"Hi," Peter said, sounding out of breath, "were you leaving?"

"We are," I said, sure to put the emphasis on the we. "This is Richard, my boyfriend. I think you guys met once before?"

"Right, right," Peter said, extending his hand. Richard took it and shook, a little more aggressively than he needed to.

No one said anything for a moment. Finally, I asked, "Peter, um, what are you doing here?"

"I got the Facebook invite thing," he said.

"You got the Facebook invite?" I repeated, incredulously. Richard, Nina, and Ashley created the event, and there was no way any of them would have invited him.

"Yeah," Peter said, "on my wall."

"On your wall?" I furrowed my eyebrows. "Or on your newsfeed?" Peter has never been very Facebook-savvy. In fact, I forgot we were even friends on Facebook, because he is not active at all.

"The wall," Peter mimed scrolling through a page, "with everyone's info."

Jesus Christ. "That's the newsfeed," I said, irritably. Peter had not been invited, he'd just seen the event on his newsfeed.

"Right, whatever," he said, either completely missing the point or doing a very good job at playing dumb. "I just thought I would stop by and try and see you before we're in LA. To, um, smooth things over." He glanced at Richard.

Richard leaned in and whispered in my ear, "I'm going to give you two some time to talk."

"No," I started, "Richard, you don't have to"—but Richard was already making his way to the back of the bar again.

"I'll make this quick," Peter said, noticing the frustration on my face. "I just felt like things got, I don't know, a little prickly, or whatever, between us, and I don't want it to be like that. We care about each other, I mean, at least I care about you, and I wouldn't want to do anything to jeopardize that standing."

It was a nice thing to say, but I was too hopped up on adrenaline, worried that Richard was irritated, to really appreciate it. "I get it," I said. "Thank you. Really. I don't want things to be awkward between us either."

Peter smiled. "Okay, good. I just had dinner in this neighborhood, and it seemed serendipitous when I saw the invite." He shrugged. "Just thought I'd swing by to say that."

"I appreciate it," I said, and even though I meant it as 'please leave immediately', I hoped he didn't read it that way.

"Glad we sorted this out," Peter said, stuffing his hands in his gloves again. "See you in LA."

As soon as the door closed behind him, I found Richard in the back. He was on the shuffleboard table again. "Hey," I said, "sorry about that. He was just trying to clear up a few things from the other night. I told you, it got a little tense between us. He just didn't want us going to LA annoyed with each other or whatever. Want to go now?"

Richard's eyes never left the board."We just started the game. I can meet you back at your place if you want."

"Okay," I said, unsure, "or I can just wait?"

"No," Richard said, "go. I know you're tired. I'll see you back there in a little." He gave me a quick peck on the cheek before turning his attention back to the game.



An hour passed, then another. Finally, around 1AM, I heard a knock. I jumped out of bed and scurried to my door. "Richard," I hissed when I saw him, "what the fuck? I thought you would be another half an hour at the most."

Richard brushed past me and plopped on my couch. "Sorry," he mumbled, "I was just...thinking."

I waited for him to say more but he didn't. "Thinking about what?"

Richard pointed his finger at me. "You," then at himself, "me. Us."

I felt all the wine from dinner turn sour in my stomach. "What is there to think about?"

Richard covered his face with his hands and groaned. "I don't know. A lot. I'm just...I'm just...." he dropped his hands and widened his eyes at the ground.

"You're just what?" I demanded, suddenly realizing how drunk he was.

When Richard looked up at me again, his eyes were glassy and red. "I'm no good for you."

"What?" I gasped, closing the distance between us. Richard leapt up from the couch and backed away from me like I had a gun in my hand. The fact that he wouldn't let me anywhere near him made me start to cry. I knew where this was going. "What are you saying?"

Richard couldn't even look at me. "That guy, Peter, that's the kind of guy you deserve to be with. Successful. I'm always going to be a deadbeat, Josie. I'm always going to hold you back. I want you to go to LA and love it and have the time of your life and not have to worry about your loser boyfriend back at home dealing with his family of Disgustingtons."

I shook my head violently. "It's not like that, Richard! God, don't you see? I don't care about all of that. I know you're going to be fine. You're brilliant and kind to your mom and I just know you're going to be fine." Richard still wouldn't look at me and I felt myself growing more and more desperate. "I don't want to be with Peter, Richard! I love you." My voice broke embarrassingly over the word 'you'.

Richard's shoulders slumped further down. "I love you too," he said, quietly.

"So then what's the problem?" I said, hope creeping back in. I loved him, he loved me, we could fix this. This was fixable. "We love each other, and that's all that matters."

Richard shook his head, sadly. "I'm breaking up with you because I love you."

I covered my mouth with my hand and heaved a sob into it. "I can't believe you," I whispered, more to myself than to him. Then louder, angrier, "I can't fucking believe you. No, you know what? I can." I brought my hands to either side of my head, like I was trying to soothe a migraine. "I knew you would fucking do this to me. I knew it." I was out of my mind with rage, and I didn't even realize I had lunged at him until Richard had my wrists in his hands, holding me back. That just undid me more, and I was screaming at him to get off me, not to touch me, and then his mouth was on mine. I didn't know whose tears I was tasting, mine or his, but I knew that I'd stopped pushing him away, and instead I was holding onto him for dear life.

Richard pulled away but continued to hold my face in his hands. "I'm sorry," he said, thumbing away a tear, "I'm so sorry." And like that, he was no longer touching me, was no longer standing in front of me, even. I heard the door close behind me and I crumbled up into a ball, right there on my dirty old floor, the one I can never get clean no matter how hard I scrubbed. What a piece of shit. Richard. This place. All of it.



"Okay!" Nance said brightly. "This is where I leave you."

We were standing a few feet from the entrance for airport security. Richard was supposed to see me off, but after what happened, I called my mom in tears and she took the train into the city the next morning to help me finish packing and accompany me to JFK. Twenty-six years old and I still need my mommy—yes, I'm aware of what a giant p-word I am.

"Mom," I croaked, burying my head in her neck.

"Josie, shhh," Nance said, stroking my hair. She pulled away and held me by the shoulders. "You are going to be fine, sweetheart. You are going to throw every ounce of yourself into your job and I promise you, it will help take your mind off Richard."

I wiped my face. "I know. You're right."

"This is why I've always pushed for you to find satisfaction in your career," she said. "Because no matter what goes wrong in your life, no one can take your success and your hard work from you. You will always be proud of yourself and feel good about yourself if you work hard."

I released a blubbery breath. "You're right again. I know you are. I think I just need to get there and be in it to really believe it."

"You do," Nance said, giving my shoulders a squeeze. "This is the hardest part, it really is. But your father and I are just so proud of you. Always remember that."

I gave her a little smile. "Thanks, mom." Her wool coat was scratchy on my face as I hugged her again.

"Just think," she said, as I hoisted my carry on bag onto my shoulder, "you're heading for the sunshine. You won't have to wear your winter coat once the whole time you're there."

I laughed. "I cannot wait to see the sun."

Nance clucked me under the chin and told me she loved me. She waited exactly where she was, even though it took me almost fifteen minutes to get through security. I gave her one last wave before heading off in the direction of my gate. The heel of my boots clicked like a metronome on the hard white floor, and with every step I thought, "I can, I can, I can."






Alright, LSPers! I will be on here to announce my good news the moment I can, and Josie will be back again in May. And thank you for all your love and encouragement in the comments section!

137 comments:

  1. Ah, I'm going to miss this blog, but so glad you'll be back in May! Good luck with your book :)

    If anyone's dealing with withdrawals (like I will be!) please check my blog out!
    cranberryvodka9.blogspot.com

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    1. I love yours read all of the posts last night!

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    2. http://tragedytwentysomething.blogspot.com/

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    3. Caroline do you still have your blog?

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  2. Thank you Jessica for this awesome blog. I truly will miss Josie the next couple months but I know you have more important things to deal with such as that awesome book you're writing. Please do let us know all the details when you can, I would love to read it. Congratuations and best of luck:)

    Poor Josie, here's hoping she has a great time in LA, achieves all she can in her career and finds a good man to spend her down time with (doesn't necessarily have to be Peter, a man who makes her happy and is worthy of her).

    I have been so inspired by this blog that I created my own and if anyone is interested here is the link:

    http://crazyadventuresinny.blogspot.com/

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    1. Ariana, I'm obsessed with the blog. I love it. I'm going to miss Josie but your blog will make up for it in the meantime.

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  3. Wahhhhhhhhhhhhh :(

    (good luck, Jess!)

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  4. Great cliffhanger :) Thank you and good luck with the book. LSP will be missed and I look forward to hearing all about Josie's adventures in May. Thank you for being a part of my Tuesdays and Thursdays.

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  5. NO.NO.NO.NO. I HATE Peter! You see ladies, Richard is a complicated, yet quite the decent gent. I can't believe this.... ugh. I sure hope she doesn't end with Peter, but I am curious to know what will happen in L.A.

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    1. Richard is a selfish douche bag who uses liquid courage to make himself look selfless. You do not appear drunk at your girlfriends house the night before she leaves on the a huge business assignment that you know will take so much out of her and break up with her. Very decent to send Josie off with a broken heart and lack of support that she thought she had.

      That being said, I am super excited to see what happens in LA regardless of Peter being there!

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  6. Can't wait for the news on the book! And looking forward to May

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  7. Really, really going to miss this blog. Very much looking forward to May. All the best with your book!

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  8. Oh gosh. I knew this was going to happen. I mean, it almost makes sense because they'll be apart and Richard doesn't want to hold Josie back. But doing it the night before she left, while he was drunk, was definitely a bad move. Josie will do great in LA and I can't wait to read this blog when it comes back! Also, good luck with the book!

    I also write a fiction blog, which can be found here: http://highheelshappyhour.blogspot.com/

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    1. Chris - @nylonlover69 on TwitterMarch 6, 2014 at 3:35 PM

      Hey Alexis! Just wanted to say that I'm liking HHHH so far, but can't comment because your comments section is restrictive and my WP account and I aren't getting along well right now...

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    2. If you like HHHH, check out this one too! I'v e really been enjoying HHHH as well :)

      http://tragedytwentysomething.blogspot.com/

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  9. Even though Richard was a total douche to Josie I am really glad they are over. I definitely cannot wait to see what happens between Josie and Peter! Team Peter FTW!

    I cannot wait until May to see what happens! I hope for exciting things!

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    1. Agreed! Team Peter all the way!

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  10. Here's some relief to your withdrawl!! I'm honestly glad she broke up with Richard, I cannot WAIT until May!!

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  11. No No No No...Peter and Josie cannot get together in LA. Team Richard!!! He broke up with her because he loves her and she knows that so if she gets together with peter she's just doing it out of spite. I will be completely devastated if that happens.

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  12. Great post - I hope that May gets here fast! Team Peter all the way!!

    Can't wait for the book news too!!

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  13. PETER!!!! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

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  14. Ahhh I have been Team Richard the entire time, but this post makes me regret that so much. What a terrible thing to do to someone hours before they move across the country for a new job. I feel so bad for Josie, but hopefully the sunshine in LA and the training program will be everything that she needs.

    Good luck on your book Jessica - I'm excited to hear the news!

    I also have a fiction blog for those of you interested in reading while LSP is off the air. Posts are on Mondays and Thursdays at 1:00 EST. Enjoy! :)

    breakupsmakeups.wordpress.com

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  15. I LOVE that Josie is starting a whole new chapter in L.A.

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  16. Deep down, way way WAY deep down, I had seriously hoped Richard would do better by Josie than the last slew of women he fooled around and toyed with. Josie was meant for better things in life than Richard. Hopefully L.A. will prove to be a better choice and she'll find a good man (Peter!!!).

    Good Luck on your book Jess! I can't wait to buy it! Until May, I at least have New York Dixie & Minnie Apple Girl!

    Xoxox Jess

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  17. Thank God, no more Richard! Josie can do better.

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  18. So sad and tragic for Josie... but maybe this will help her solely focus on the grueling training program, and stick it out, without any added stress of having a relationship, as well. Either way, regardless of what happens long term with Richard, I do NOT want Josie with Peter!

    Good luck, Jessica! Can't wait to read your book!

    lifebyaleah.blogspot.com

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  19. Chris - @nylonlover69 on TwitterMarch 6, 2014 at 3:21 PM

    Damn. You. Richard. For making Josie's good move all about you!

    And you too, Peter. smh...

    Good luck Josie. I know you're gonna need it but I can't wait to hear how it all goes down.

    And good luck to you too, Jessica, although I know you DON'T need it, but I can't wait to hear the good news on your book!

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  20. Freaking Richard...what a wuss! I really feel for Josie in this...

    I have come to LOVE this blog. Really hoping you'll come back in May and not leave us hanging again! Best of luck with your book...xo

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    1. Sar, if you need something to read in the meantime! http://tragedytwentysomething.blogspot.com/

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  21. Awesome post to leave us with! I will be back to find out what happened! So eager!!

    Good luck on the break!

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  22. I can't wait to hear the news of your book!! ) I will be having withdrawal from the blog until May!!! Good luck Jessica!!

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  23. My heart broke for Josie in this post. I was never a true fan of Richard and after this post I don't think I ever will be, but deep down I sort of wanted him and Josie to work because I wanted Josie to be happy and I didn't want her to have to go through a heartbreak. But it was inevitable because Richard simply didn't seem like he was the one in the end, so I'm happy they ended because it's all for the best. I just wish he didn't do it the way he did.

    Anyways, I'm very excited for this next chapter in Josie's life while she's in LA. I hope something happens with Peter. I've always had a soft spot for him and I think Josie does too. Plus, neither of them are really going to know anyone in LA besides each other and co-workers (and disgusting Ian. Ugh.), so I hope we at least get to see them hang out a bit. Josie's going to be all the way across the country, away from her friends and family and same goes for Peter. I hate thinking how lonely they're both potentially going to feel out there, especially with Josie not having her friends by her side to help her through the breakup. Can't wait to hear all of her lovely adventures around the city and to In-N-Out and Diddy Riese and the beaches and all the other wonderful places that LA holds!! I'm from LA myself so I'm super excited for when posts start back up again!

    Love you Jessica!! This was a great post. I wish you all the best and success with your book! You deserve it! See you in May!

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    1. Yeah I'm wondering if Ian will come back into the story now with Josie being in LA.

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    2. OMG! I totally forgot about Ian. I loved him, hope he comes back!

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  24. I started off liking richard.....then slowly I was like eehhhh.....This post made it official, I'm over him. I suppose it was perfect timing for a breakup, not so much for josie but for us readers ;) now josie can have some fun to make for interesting blogs. Can't wait to hear about your book jessica! And definitely can't wait for May.....I hope it won't be the end of LSP though.....!!

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  25. I know she and Richard will work it out, you can appreciate what Richard did for her by ending the relationship. He has too much going on in his life that would distract Josie. I just hope Peter gives her space to develop and make it through this part of her career as well. God i love this blog lol. Excellent as always Lady J. May cant come soon enough for me!!!! Good luck with you book!!

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  26. I like the fact that Peter extended an olive branch to Josie. He knows that they will be working together and doesn't want any issues between them. It would be great to see them grow as friends during this experience. Peter can watch Josie grow and succeed in her career. I've always believed that Peter was supportive in her career choices. He just wanted to make sure that she thought it through 100% and made sure she had all of the right information before she made the final decision. I think he always wanted her to be well-informed first. A new environment and fresh faces will be necessary for this new phase in Josie's life.

    Richard is becoming like his mother. He uses alcohol to cope with his issues. And while he hasn't hurt anyone physically, Josie has had to deal with the brunt of it emotionally. That is not a loving relationship. Richard has a tendency to hold back important information from Josie, and that's a huge red-flag on his part.

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    1. Thank you Nani! All these posts on Richard "proving" himself. He did prove himself. Proved himself to be incapable of being an adult and handling adult issues. Life is hard sometimes. Grow a pair for crying out loud.

      I do like Peter bringing the relationship with Josie to an adult place and clearing the air. He didn't do anything offensive and was a complete gentleman. I think that it will be interesting to see how their professional relationship evolves in LA.

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  27. My heart broke a little during the whole Richard break up bit. I've always been on Richard's side and I still kind of hope that come May he'll show up in LA and do this huge romantic gesture but maybe that's just wishful thinking.

    I can't wait to hear about all her adventures in LA though, I'm sure she's gonna have a great time.

    I wish you all the best with your book! See you in May!

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    1. Mina, if you need something to tide you over, check out Tragedy and the Twenty Something!

      http://tragedytwentysomething.blogspot.com/

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  28. JESSICA! NOOOOO. WHY. WHY WHY!!!!!! RICHARD MUST COME BACK NOW! I'M SO UPSET! LET HIM PROVE HIMSELF PLEASE! LET HIM SHOW UP IN L.A. AND GET THEM BACK TOGETHER! HE'S THE ONLY OTHER GUY THAT SHE SAID I LOVE YOU TO (besides Eric and Justin, but Justin doesn't count)! SHE MUST GO AFTER HIM AND SHOW HIM THAT HE'S ENOUGH FOR HER! SCREW PETER, HE HAD HIS CHANCE LIKE THREE DIFFERENT TIMES! BRING RICHARD BACK!

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  29. Wow! Just, Wow! What a way to leave things. May can't get here soon enough!

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  30. As much as I hate Richard, I feel for him. He shouldn't have dumped Josie though. Yet again he pulls a dick move. But omg.... PETER! Can't wait til May! Please promise that you will in fact be back then, Jess! Please don't be one of these blogs that is just forgotten about!

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  31. I've never written on here before but I wanted to say thank you for all of the hardwork you put into this blog. I truly love your writing style and the story that has unfolded. Although sometimes I don't agree with Josie (or the other characters for that matter) I am very excited to see how she handles LA and her drama with Peter! Hopefully she doesn't do anything that she will regret (*ahem... Peter)!

    Anyways, thank you so much! This blog really does brighten up my day whenever I read it!

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  32. This was a great post to leave us with! Not so much unsaid that I want more right away, but still enough suspense that I will definitely be back in May to see what happens!

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  33. Never liked Richard glads its over !!
    Team Petter !

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  34. I really like Richard, but I get they might not be right for each other. But, PLEASE NO NO NO to Peter, he is such a douche. He ruins everything in Josie's life when it's convienent for HIM. So selfish.

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  35. I was team Richard, that made me a little sad the way it all ended but I am sure things will be hot with Peter or maybe even William in LA.. Heck she might run into that one guy she knows that already lives in LA wasn't his name "Ian" this should be good.. I can't wait until May too see what happens when the blog is back up! I sure will miss it this long time it is gone.. I have a few others I read but I will miss this one also!

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    1. William is old, fat and bald! No Way!! LOL!

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  36. Thank you for providing us with the absolutely badass character of Nance! Sad post aside, that woman is awesome and I like to pretend she's giving me a pep talk instead of Josie sometimes :)

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    1. Nance is basically my mom, and she gives the BEST pep talks.

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    2. Agreed! Nance seems like the best mom you could possibly have.

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  37. help i need a new blog to follow like this one while this is on break!!!!

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    1. cranberryvodka9.blogspot.com and minneapplegirl.com :)

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    3. newyorkdixie.blogspot.com is a great one too!

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  38. Good luck Josie and good luck Jessica. See you in may!

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  39. Cant wait til May! Team Peter!!!!

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  40. Team Peter ftw!

    I will miss reading new entries in this blog until May that's for sure. Good luck Jessica! :)

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  41. Hopefully Josie will be more driven than distracted by the break-up. Even though I have always been team Peter, I have been liking Richard over the past several post.

    I wish you the best of luck on your book Jessica.I am looking forward to hearing any news you share with us about your book & for May when Josie returns. Cheers!

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  42. Good luck with the book Jessica, cant wait to read it!

    Not a big fan of Richard or Peter, hoping she doesn't get back with either one. Cant wait to see what's waiting for Josie next.

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  43. If you're looking for another read during Josie's time off, check this out!

    Counting down the days until May!

    http://tragedytwentysomething.blogspot.com/

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    1. It's a little annoying that you feel the need to shamelessly plug your blog 6 times. Once should suffice like the other bloggers.

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    2. Really though. It's been more than six times. Her doing that just ensures that people won't read it. At least I wont. Once is more than enough.

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    3. I like your blog so far Danielle! Thanks for sharing on here. :-)

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    4. No need to be catty little bitches ;-)

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    5. Wow catty much??? you guys are the annoying ones...

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  44. The scared little boy needs to grow the hell up. He only did that because he was afraid Josie would do it to him first. He's totally trying to protect himself. I think he just gave her a free pass for LA and an opportunity for Peter to move in and pick up the pieces.

    May will be here before we know it. Good luck, gal! mum

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  45. This post seriously had me in tears.. Good luck Jos! And good luck Jessica!

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  46. Blogs
    hey I asked Jess Hulett if she had the link for K's blog. For those of you new to this blog, K's blog was the cosmo bedroom blog for Josie's story started.
    http://www.cosmopolitan.com/archives/sex-love/bedroom-blog/15;73
    you're welcome
    Renee Marie

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  47. ok so i hadnt looked at the link she sent me before i posted this. its still the same old link that starts the story who knows how far into it. but its as far back as cosmo allows. I tried so many combos of urlst o find older posts but no luck

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    1. Here is the first bedroom blog entry that I have:

      http://www.cosmopolitan.com/sex-love/bedroom-blog/bedroom_1

      I think it is a month earlier than the one you have above.

      Thanks for making me remember that I had it. I may re-read it while Josie is on hiatus.

      Katiel

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    2. That is the first BB entry, however it is K's blog, not Josie's.

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  48. http://surprisinglytheothergirl.blogspot.com/?m=1
    It's really good, should go check it out

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  49. Totally going to miss josie!! :(

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  50. I miss you already!! My Tuesday was just not the same without my Josie fix!

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  51. I don't want Peter back with Josie romantically, and at the same time, I do not blame peter for this break up. But I thank god for him.
    Richard is the definition of emotionally unstable; given his situation, that isn't unreasonable, but no one can be in a relationship with someone like him and maintain sanity. Whether it's commitment issues or insecurity, he is not mature or strong enough to deal with an adult relationship.
    You do not get drunk to cope with the fact that you feel inadequate. You especially don't get drunk to give yourself the courage to dump someone. You do not go from healthy and happy to breaking up in one minute, even if you run into an ex. You do not make out passionately with your crying girlfriend so she stops being angry that you're dumping her.
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