August 22, 2013

Ghosts of Dating Past, Part II


       It took me a moment to figure out what was going on. But Peter explained that he was my highest bidder, not Justin. That “I miss you, J?” The “J” was for Josie, not Justin’s way of signing off. Peter had assumed I could see the audience from the stage, and that I’d known he was the one who had forked over $5,500 for a good meal and the pleasure of my company.
“Well, thanks for the bid,” I said. “I didn’t think I’d get any.”
Peter laughed. “You should have seen the other guy trying to bid on you. I couldn’t let that happen to you.”
I suddenly remembered Ashley and asked Peter if I could use his phone to text her. She texted back that she had headed backstage to try and find me, and that she was making her way out to the front now.
“So,” Peter said, a glimmer in his eye. Man, I missed that. “‘Star’ of a show? What’s that about?”
“It’s nowhere near as impressive as it sounds,” I said. I told him about my new job, which he kind of already knew about since Elizabeth had been the one to hook me up, and how I ended up on Social Media. When I finished, there was an expression on Peter’s face I’d never seen before, and I don’t even know if I can pin down exactly what it was. It was sad almost, nostalgic.
“What?” I asked.
“Nothing.” Peter looked down at his feet, examined a scuff on his shiny shoes. Peter’s shoes had always intimidated me—they were pointy and severe, the kind important, accomplished men wore. They reminded me of the divide that would always exist between us—growing up, I “summered” in the next door neighbor’s pool, while Peter had summered at his family’s Nantucket estate. I know that kind of stuff shouldn’t matter, but it did when we were together. I always felt like his friends and family, his ex-wife and former in-laws, looked at me like I was just his twenty-something slam piece. A fling he had to get out of his system before he settled down with a woman who played squash and knew to pass the salt and pepper shakers together. 
“Hey!” Ashley was walking towards us. She handed me my clutch and gave Peter a hug. “This guy,” she said, pointing to him. “Saved your ass.”
“So I hear,” I said.
“Jos, you don’t understand. The guy who wanted a date with you? I could see his nose hairs from across the room.” 
“Gross,” I laughed, looking at Peter. He still had that same sad expression, and I had to look away. 
Ashley picked up on the look. “I’m exhausted,” she said. “I think I’m going to take off.”
“I’ll get you a cab,” Peter volunteered. 
After we’d put Ashley in a cab (and after she’d mouthed to me behind his back, “Get it! Get it!”), Peter asked if I wanted to get a drink somewhere.
“That depends,” I said. 
“On?”
“On your girlfriend. If you have one.”
“I broke up with her a week ago,” he said. “I would have called you, but in your email you made it sound like you didn’t want me to.”
I was floored. I couldn’t believe Peter had stayed away because of my email. Even though I’d said I didn’t want him to break up with his girlfriend for me, I’d also added that I’d never stopped thinking about him, and that I hoped there was a time for us in the future. Peter is the type of guy who goes for what he wants, and I wouldn’t think that would have been enough to keep him away.
We decided to walk west towards a wine bar Peter liked. 
“Promise it’s not far,” I said, pointing to my monster heels.
“Just a few blocks,” he said.
But as we were crossing the street, my heel got stuck in a grate on the sidewalk. I flew forward, skidded on the ground, and took off a chunk of skin on my knee. And obviously I started howling like a five year old. 
“Shit,” Peter said when he saw my knee. It was pretty grisly looking. “You need to  wash this now before you get an infection.” 
Peter helped me to my feet, and I leaned against him while he hailed us a cab. I didn’t stop him when he gave the driver his address. It’s not like I didn’t have band-aids and neosporin at my place. 
It had been a long time since I’d been in Peter’s building, but even so, his doorman remembered me. I was walking like an invalid, Peter supporting most of my weight, but I forced a smile onto my face and waved at him.
“Everything okay?” he asked. 
“Just a little spill, Louis,” Peter said.
Peter helped me onto a stool in his kitchen and disappeared into the bathroom to get his supplies. He came out with a soapy wash cloth. 
“This may sting a little,” he said. He knelt in front of me and pressed it against my knee, and I sucked my breath in sharply.
Peter pulled the wash cloth away and examined my knee. “There’s gravel in there,” he said.
I felt like I was going to throw up. My parents always tease me about being a wimp, and I always get all defensive about it, but the truth is, I am a big fat baby when it comes to stuff like this. I don’t even understand how women have babies. The stretching, the tearing. I can’t. “Do you think I need to go to the hospital?” 
“I think if we can get it out you don’t need to.” He looked up at me. “Do you want to do it or do you want me?”
I covered my eyes with my hands. “You. I can’t even look at it.”
Peter used the wash cloth to brush away the gravel while I went to my happy place (pizza, pizza, dark chocolate almond butter with vanilla ice cream, pizza). When he was finished, he squirted some neosporin on my knee and covered the whole mess with a few band aids. 
“You’re good as new.” I removed my hands from my eyes and looked down at Peter on his knees on the floor. His hand was warm on my calf.
“You always had the softest skin,” he said. 
It was too much, I couldn’t take how intimate the whole scene was. So I cracked a joke as per usual. “Are you going to make a coat out of me now?” 
Peter didn’t laugh. Instead, he moved his hand further up my leg, to my inner thigh. I took a shaky breath.
Peter paused at the hemline of my Tibi dress. “If you want me to stop, say it now,” he said, quietly.
I pressed my lips together and shook my head. It wasn’t a yes, it wasn’t a no, and Peter stood, rising over me and slipping his hand behind my neck. I felt his heart beating fast as he came closer still and kissed me.
He pushed my legs apart so he could step in between them, and then he was picking me up, his hands in my hair and around my waist, carrying me to the bedroom. He pulled down the zipper on the back of my dress before he put me down on the bed. I shimmied out of it while he unbuttoned his shirt and stepped out of his tuxedo pants. I felt how hard he was when he got on top of me. When he slipped inside of me, he groaned. I felt his hand between my legs and as he touched me, the way he knew I liked, the way no one else really had before him, he said, “No one knows you like this. Tell me.” 
He pulled the back of my hair so that my chin came up, and he buried his face in my neck, kissing my ear and my collarbone. “Say it,” he whispered into my ear.
“No one knows me like this,” I repeated back. The words seem to invigorate him, and he thrust inside me hard, his fingers moving in a way that made me feel like there was heat in every limb of my body.
“I miss you,” he said, softly, in my ear again. He pressed his thumb into me and I gasped. 
“I miss you,” I said, and I meant it. “I miss you so much.” 
Peter pulled back so that he was sitting up right, looking down at the place where we connected. He held my hips and pulled me into him closer, but I wanted his hand on me again and he knew it. He wet his fingertips on his lips and pressed them into me again. 
“I want to watch you come,” he said. He knew when it happened, by the way my body shuddered. He knelt over me again and kissed me, and I felt his body release too. 
We were so physically spent, we didn’t even talk after that. I rolled onto my side, and Peter pushed the covers down. He made sure we were both under the sheets before he came behind me and held me to him. 
“Just wake me up when you do,” I murmured, before I drifted off. Peter gets up crazy early for work, and if I got up then, I’d have more than enough time to get home and shower and get to work on the early side, which I needed to do after my conversation with William.
I went into an orgasm coma in no time at all. As I drifted off, I thought, I could get used to this...

Author Note: Thank you for joining me in my new digital digs! I will continue to post every Tuesday and Thursday at 2pm. Follow me on my personal twitter @JessMKnoll where I will tweet out the links to new posts. I hope you continue to comment and tell me when Josie is acting a fool. XX

86 comments:

  1. I'm so glad the blog is continuing!!! I never posted on cosmo.com because I don't have a facebook account (used to comment on the old bedroom blog before they changed the commenting system) but I absolutely love your blog so much. You're a great writer, and Josie is a very relatable girl, much as I envy her at times. Her insecurities make her seem very real.

    That being said.. I'm so glad it wasn't Justin who bid on her, I hated that guy so much. :)

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  2. I'm glad Peter is back in the picture. Also, it sounds like Peter is going to let Josie sleep in. She's going to be late for her job. And then she's going to get fired. Ouch.

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    1. Yea I can definitely see that happening, which would really suck man. And speaking of work, what's going on with Richard? How's the fallout after the Hamptons? Or am I forgetting something lol

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  3. I am so happy you did not stop writing!
    I always find the time to take a break from work to read your blog!
    this one especially was so juicy!
    I am def on team Peter!!!

    Do not ever stop writing Jess, you are an amazing writer :)

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  4. I love this blog so much and I'm slow glad that it's continuing even if it's not on the Cosmo website!!! Thank you for keeping Josie alive!!!

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  5. I agree with Melissa I think she is going to be late and get fired. But I really hope that's not the case. Good luck Josie. ♥

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  6. Also a big fan of Peter. I always hoped they'd get back together after they both figured a few things out!

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  7. Love this blog. I wonder if crazy Elisabeth is going to stir the pot once she finds out about Peter bidding on a date with Josie. I think that Josie well over to sleep and be late for work and get fired. I personally love Peter and Josie together, they just need to work on your communication issues. hopefully this time around things will be better. I'm curious if Elizabeth was also at the auction if she already had her baby. just wanted to say thank you for all the posts and I think that you're a great writer, I love following Josie and her crazy escapades.

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  8. I really love your blog and Josie's story. It really does seem very real. I honestly think you should consider writting a book. It would be a big hit :)

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  9. Good lawd, that post made me week in the knees. That's the bedroom blog. Thanks for continuing to share your gift of writing with us! mum

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  10. Tra la la I love love love your blog. Your a great writer and I'm so happy the story continues.

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  11. I love this blog! I'm so happy its going to continue!!!!

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  12. I loved the blog so glad it will continue just hope Josie won't mess things up at work

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  13. I'm tired of Peter! I want a new boy in the picture!

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  14. I'm sooo happy that you're continuing this blog! I love it! I look forward to it every week!

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  15. Love love this blog. Really happy you are still writing it. As for Josie, seems like Peter is here weakness. No matter what is going on with her she always seems to come back to him

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  16. You are an amazing wrighter and I love the fact that you have you won't stop writhing

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  17. Peter and Josie are so hot together. he is exactly what she needs. hope it works out this time. you're an amazing writer. thank you for continuing the blog.

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  18. Yay Josie's story continues!!! I'm so glad that Peter is back in a big way!!!

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  19. So glad its continuing....and great way to start it off.

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  20. oh man... she's not getting to work the next day...

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  21. Very happy the blog is continuing. The length of the posts lately have been great, so thanks for the additional depth and details.

    Peter would be my weakness too. There's something about dating an older guy. They know what they want and are in control just enough I find it sexy rather than boorish. I do think Josie will sleep in, be late and have work fallout. However, I'm hoping she doesn't get fired as much as get a reality check work-wise after so much good stuff has fell into her lap recently. Firing her, though? That would be way harsh, Ty.

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  22. could use some spacing between the paragraphs. This text is harder to read than the one on cosmo, but I am so happy this is continuing.

    I was so disappointed it wasn't Justin. He is easily my favorite guy. I'm over the Peter thing. He exhausts me, but the Grady thing seems somewhat intriguing as well. Looking for more JUSTIN!

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    1. Agreed! Justin is my favorite too!

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  23. Gah, I LOVE PETER <3 I absolutely know 'weakness' about a guy and Peter is Josies. I really hope you keep Peter around and by the comments people are liking this Peter-Josie thing! Please feel free to upload more often then tue-thrs 2pm. (:

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  24. Sounds like a booty call to me. I dont see them getting together anytime soon for anything other than sex. But I always liked Peter.

    Renee Marie

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  25. I feel like Peter is Big. Carrie knows that Big probably isn't the best thing for her, that he's flawed and he'll hurt her but a love like theirs is undeniable, so they always come back to each other :)

    Also Grady is Smith Jared lol

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    1. OMG I almost said the exact same thing!!

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    2. Yup, Peter totally reminds me of Big.

      Unfortunately, I'm dealing with my own Big right now, who broke up with me and it's totally tearing me apart. We were together 4.5 years, on and off this past year :( And I always felt my man was like Big too :(

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  26. So glad this blog continues! I too like that they have been more lengthy. I have to admit I'm not a fan of peter, I'm over him really. I think it's time for new characters. Also, I hope to read up on some loose ends, like the mob guy, lol, her co workers, did elizabeth have the baby, etc. In the cosmo blog comments I read a lot of negative things about Josie and the direction the blog goes but I want to praise the writer because I can picture the chatacters and everything that's going on and I think that's the goal of a writer, so mission complete, lol. Hopefully there are more updates more frequently ;-) I have the blog bookmarked on my cell phone so it's great to read during down time :-)

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  27. I am so happy peter is back! I always liked him better then Justin and all the other guys she dated. Amazing read!

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  28. YAY!!!! I am so happy that I can keep reading this blog... Now you will have more freedom to right a better bedroom blog more adult style. I love this blog a lot of girl/women can relate to this story or even live the New York dream though Josie. I watch my clock every Tuesday and Thursday for 2:00 to come so I can log on and see what crazy thing Josie has done. I'm also glad I can comment now, I don't do social networks so this is great. I look forward to reading your blog. PS: I would definitely read any book you right if its going to be anything like this blog... Thank you and good luck in the future in all your endeavors. Oh, I hope Peter and Josie stay together... She won't be late and get fired but if she does hopefully Peter will have her back...

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  29. This is finally the good ol' pg13 bedroom blog I believe we all wanted secretly :P
    I really don't care for Peter... I like Justin I just feel like Josie is not a good communicator when it comes to relationships. Also I agree with those who said she will be late since he already told her he is not working for the old elizaabeth's-dad-company sooo it should be interesting

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  30. This is getting so interesting!!!!
    Peter is more the controlling dominant one that fights for what he wants.
    Justin just needs to figure himself out.
    And Grady seems like an awesome very go with the flow and sweet

    omg

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  31. I have been reading the Bedroom Blog since it was first started with K and I have to say as much as I loved that character...I love Josie so much more! She seems more real. I agree with most everyone in that I'm kinda happy to see Peter is back. I could deal if Justin never came back around, he really turned me off with his attitude lately! I would definitely like to see what happens with Grady now that Peter has shown up again! Anyway, just wanted to give you props on your writing and say what a way to start off the post-cosmo blog!! Wow! :)

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  32. I am so glad... and after reading this post very wet as well if i may say so... every writer doesn't have this ability to write in a way that would make it difficult for their reader to not feel what the characters are feeling... Thanks! And keep up the awesome writing... :)

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  33. yay!!! Awesome post!!!

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  34. Why cant people spell WRITE? Glad I followed Jess!

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  35. I never commented on the Cosmo blog, but I have been a fan since K. as well as some of the other commenters. I do have to say that J. is so much more relatable and interesting. I am so happy that you continued to write on your own blog. I screamed out loud when Cosmo first posted that you would be leaving. I am looking forward to reading the blog continuation and living through Josie! :)

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  36. Ahhh now I can finally comment! I love, love, love Peter. I pictured him more as Richard Gere in Pretty Woman, but that's just me. Love this blog!

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  37. I am loooovvviiinng this! Thank you Jess for continuing the blog! I absolutely love Peter so so so much. He is easily the most intriguing of the men in Josie's life! I always take the time to read this blog and am patiently waiting Tuesday and thurs

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  38. Love it. As always. Thank you for this new blog for Josie. Always make my Wednesday and Friday :)

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  39. Love this blog. Tuesday and Thursday are my favourite days. Please make it a daily thing! I would be willing to pay to read it!!!

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  40. It is nice that josie's story is continuing here. Keep up the good work.

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  41. I picture Peter as Peter Burke from White Collar as far as looks and success. I know if I had a guy who looked like Peter Burke hitting on me, it'd be hard to say "No".

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  42. #teampeter all the way! Although their relationship wasn't perfect, I think he's definitely worth a second chance. Justin, on the other hand...good riddance!

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  43. #teampeter all the way! Although their relationship wasn't perfect, I think he's definitely worth a second chance. Justin, on the other hand...good riddance!

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  44. I LOVE THIS STORY AND I AM SO HAPPY YOU ARE CONTINUING IT HERE!! I will definitely be following along FOR SURE!!

    <3, Charlotte

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  45. Absolutely love your blog! Can't get through a week without reading what you get up to. You're an amazing writer!

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  46. Woop woop!!! I am absolutely delighted that the blog is living on!!! I used to go onto cosmo everyday purely to check whether it was updated or not (even though I knew it wouldn't be seeing as it was only every tues-thurs)...so in case you haven't realised....I'm hooked! Haha

    The whole Peter/Josie thing is very sweet, it really shows their enduring love for eachother despite their previous ups and downs. However, I'm not sure it's such a good idea that they dive into another relationship head-on without sorting out all the issues they had in the first place. And also, she still has to figure out did he cheat on her...that sort of thing can't just be swept under the rug.
    On the other hand, I have no problem with hearing about her messing around with Peter on the side whilst still seeing how things go with Grady.

    Grady seems like a nice guy, and could be a dark horse in the bedroom...especially if he's hung like a horse. My guy's the same and take it from me ladys...If it were up to me I wouldn't leave the bedroom unless I was made to ;)

    Can't wait to see how Josies story progresses! And please increase the amount of posts please and thank you! You rock and never give up writing, you have an amazing talent :) xoxo

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  47. I love it! Thanks for continuing on!

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  48. Thank you for continuing this blog! It is most definitely my guilty pleasure. I adore the Peter and Josie story and am so happy to see them back together. It would be interesting how they work together to resolve their differences instead of making it so dramatic and rocky all the time. Looking forward to more blogs!

    It does sound like Peter is going to let Josie sleep in which will probably cause her to looser her job. Don't let it happen!

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  49. Loved this! I am so thrilled that you are continuing to write about Josie...Love the sex. It was just the right combination to satisfy those on all levels of the freaky spectrum ;)

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  50. Super duper glad you decided to continue the blog! I absolutely <3 it. If you ever write a book as good as you do this blog, I will be sure to buy it! I follow numerous other blogs, but yours is by far the best!! It makes me wish that the posts are quicker, but I know you have a life and don't have to write this blog. So I thank you for that!

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  51. Great job!! Thank you for continuing Josie's story line. I'm addicted.

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  52. I'd like to hear more about how Josie is using protection. I get it, she's not real. But people reading this are. It'd be refreshing to hear it. Cosmo's red hot reads always do. Please consider (:

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  53. Hey ladies, this might be a stupid question, but she mentions in her mini write up to follow her on Twitter to find links to her blog. I don't have a Twitter account, am I going to be missing out on posts?

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    1. Nope. you should be able to access all future post as long as you make this site one of your favorites. I don't think that Twitter is needed at all.

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  54. Love peter wujuuuuu

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  55. Thank you soooo much for continuing this ! Love love love the blog! You're an amazing writer, keep up the excellent job <3

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  56. I dunno about this... I'm not sure what I think about Peter but I really like Grady. If I were Josie I would have said I'm kind of dating someone now.

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  57. Ahhh so glad this blog is still going!!! I wish the posts were longer though because I love reading every word. Love love love that peter is back, he's always been my fav.

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  58. I love Peter. I always have. I'm reallllly hoping they stay together as much as I know they won't.

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  59. I like Peter, but I easily prefer Josie's relationship with Justin - it would be perfect if suddenly they were both interested and she had things going on with both before she eventually had to pick!

    Also, I'm hoping she doesn't get fired :(

    Keep this up! The longer the posts, the better :))

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  60. I look forward to reading this blog every Tuesday and Thursday! Secretly read it in class, at work; thank you so much for continuing here!!

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  61. Thank you so much for continuing the story!

    I love Peter!! He is Josie`s Mr.Big!!

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  62. I find the Team Justin fans amusing. Rooting for the noncommittal, emotionally manupulative, cheating, blackmailing, homophobe?? Truly ladies, every woman deserves better than THAT guy.

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    1. Totally agree!!!!!!
      Just cuz he's young and hot... its not all bout the looks!

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  63. LOVING this! I reaallly hope peter doesn't let her sleep in! Also super excited peter got it in! Haha

    Thanks for continuing on and writing the secretly dirty bedroom blog we all love!

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  64. Thanks for continuing to blog about Josie!

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  65. PETER! He's back :D Although I wish something would happen with Grady.. but he just seems too... insecure in himself. Maybe in the future when he gets himself sorted out something can happen between him and Josie <3

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  66. So hot!!! Love that Peter is back in the picture. I hope they can make it work this time. Thanks for continuing the blog. It makes my Tuesdays & Thursdays.

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  67. Are the Tuesday/Thursday posts continuing? mum

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  68. I thought tues/thurs was continuing also :( Come on Jess!

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  69. Anon-apparently this blog is updated regularly. My bookmark keeps bringing me back to this post so I thought it wasn't. Use this link and then bookmark. http://lovesexpizza.blogspot.com
    mum

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  70. I just found this blog where can I read the beginning??!

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